What is your commitment level?

As I walk with the Lord of Lords and King of Kings, I have to ask myself what is my commitment level? What am I willing to do for and with him? Speak to a total stranger on the street when I know they are hurting and need an encouraging word? What about those who are known to me that I could speak life into but choose to walk on by because I am to busy or lazy to notice? I look at my life and wonder what it would be if I chose to walk in obedience no matter the cost to me and my comfort level. I am by nature a selfish person, I like my alone time, I like to decide when and if I will allow others into my time schedule. This is just the facts. I know that I have missed divine appointments because I have been to selfish to see them. I have missed blessing and healing and encouragement for my own life because of this as well. I don’t want to continue down this path. I want my life to make a difference in the lives of those around me, the ones I know and the ones I will know at a later time. There is so much that God can do in me and through me if I am willing to let Him do it. The cost of living this way is no more selfishness, no more thinking of my own comfort over that of others. Big order for one who is so very into comfort!  I am on day 76 of prayer. I didn’t stop at day 40 and this has been an amazing journey. He is changing me, He is doing a work that I know is going to have an impact on my world. But there is such a long way to go…as I am pretty messed up! I am learning that there is great value in a hug, a prayer, a word of hope in someone’s dark place of hurt. That when I speak to someone what I hear the Lord saying they are given a gift of His peace in their situation or hurt. I have seen the Lord answer prayer for healing, jobs, relationships, etc…Love seeing God work in the lives of those I am circling in prayer! Some haven’t yet been healed or gotten the job, or are still battling in relationships, but that doesn’t mean it won’t be answered! I want to walk in faithfulness that is life changing for not only me but those around me that need Jesus! So as I have asked myself the question of what my commitment level is, I am asking you the same. What is your commitment level? What are you willing to allow God to do with and through you?

I have the Best Boss Ever

leaderI have such a great Leader, I don’t even hardly know how to act! I find that she is compassionate, funny, reliable, does her job well and makes everyone around her feel like secure in their own job as well. I don’t know that I have ever had such a great Leader before. I am so thankful and probably more grateful after enduring Sheila and then Jeane. There is a Huge difference in working for someone who is secure in their job and someone who is insecure! And then there is the side of her that is so very good to David. Yesterday I had to have David brought to the office because Michael had piano lessons. Allie came up and started a game of cards with David! He loved that. So did I. I am blessed with so much at my present job and I am so very grateful to God for opening this opportunity to me. I came into this job hurt and disillusioned but now I am doing what I do well and have a great group of people to work with.allie 1 There are blessing all around us, we just have to be willing to look for them and sometimes a change is required of us.  I hated leaving my old job, I really loved working for the Dr but I must say that this move was a very good move for me and has been full of blessing and joy all along the way. God is wonderful, even when things are hard He always comes through. I can trust Him with every detail of my life knowing He has everything under control even when it feels like He isn’t paying attention! allie 2 allie 3

The Flu has landed at my house

This is not a good thing. It Is Awful! David has been coughing so hard that he throws up. He is being treated with Tamiflu and with an antibiotic. The Antibiotic is to cover any chance of a secondary infection. Special Needs People like David are more fragile and need special David sickattention when it comes to this kind of infection. I am so glad that he has such a good Nurse Practitioner. She is very good with him and thinks things through when it comes to his care. As for Charlie and I, we are taking the Tamiflu, which by the way is EXPENSIVE even with insurance! I wasn’t going to get it at first but then after one night, we decided we were willing to pay the price for the medication! It does help and it was well worth the cost! Although we are feeling better we still sound Terrible!

On to other things…Charlie gets his Baby Grand Piano tomorrow. He is soooo excited about this. We got a deal we couldn’t pass up on it. He is working 7 days a week now so I really don’t know when he is going to get to play it, but, I guess he won’t always be working 7 days a week! I am looking forward to hearing him and Michael play on it. Michael is now enrolled at NEO with a Music Major, and is taking piano lessons. So he is pretty excited about the piano as well.


Kia accident 1Other news, my car is in the shop being fixed. They called yesterday to say that there was about $6000 worth of damage done. It will be another week before I get my car back. It is amazing how much damage a deer can do to your car. This pic doesn’t really show much. They said it appears that the deer “sat” on my hood and did quite a bit of damage under the hood. Looks can be deceiving that is for sure. I will be glad to have me car back…as will Michael as he is taking me everywhere I need to be till this is fixed. He is a good son!


My 28 day clean eating bootcamp was okay but not what I would have liked it to be. I plan to continue eating “clean” as much as I can, but it is harder than I though it would be. I am on day 26 of my 40 days of prayer. I am seeing God work in so many areas, and I know that He is working in all the things I am circling in prayer. It is amazing to me that He cares so much. Kelly and Tim both have jobs now, however, I am continuing to pray that Tim gets a specific job he is really wanting to get. I love the journey I am on!

Getting My Prayer On….

warfareThis has not been easy for me. I find it difficult to have a definite time to set aside for prayer. I have heard that the best time is to pray first thing in the morning before the cares of the day take over…but for me it has proven to be the most difficult time of the day. And why wouldn’t it be? If you know me you know I am not a morning person. I don’t talk in the morning, I get ready for work, listen to my bible as I get ready and prepare David’s breakfast and lunch. I don’t even talk much when I first get to work.  And yet because people have written books and spoke at seminars about first thing in the morning being the best time to pray I tried that…yea didn’t work out so well. So this first week of prayer I have found that the best time for me to pray is right before I go to bed. I have all the things from the day to discuss with the Lord, I know better how to pray about the things that I am “circling” in prayer and have been able to be very specific about them. I have gone to bed with peace and not concerned or stressed over what has happened during the day. So I have decided that the best time of day to pray is the time that works best for you, the time that you are the most alert and engaged in the conversation. For many people that is first thing in the morning, but not for me. I have a hard time staying focused on prayer in the morning, I don’t put everything into the conversation as I do when I pray before I go to bed. That is what I have discovered about this.
maxine42I have also been doing a clean eating protocol this is the first week of my 28 day journey…I have done okay, not as good as I would have liked. I have gone off of coffee, and sugar, and all unhealthy foods. It is hard for me this week because I don’t really like the vanilla shake mix much and the chocolate is on back order. I got an email telling me that the chocolate is on its way. Hopefully it will be here early next week! I have lost weight…not a lot of weight, but some and that is better than gaining! I was 4lbs over my stop weight when I went off of Hcg in September. I have maintained my weight loss for 4 months now and I am not wanting to go backwards. I want to start losing again. I know I need to be exercising again. But baby steps for me 🙂
So there is an update. Love to you who stop by to be a part of my life! See ya next blog!
Isaiah 43:19

I have a JOB!

wow I have been unemployed for 6 weeks and then Boom I get an interview on Monday and am offered the job on Wednesday! I must tell you that this last 6 wks have been a rough time for me. I have struggled with forgiving Dr’s wife, I have struggled with rather or not anyone would be willing to hire me if they knew I was unable to work out my differences with her. It is a question that is asked by every job application I filled out. “Why did you leave your previous job?” Who is going to even look at me if I am honest about that question? How much info do I give? As little as possible…So what to say? There was no room for growth at my previous place of employment.
I was asked at my interview on Monday what I liked least about my previous job…I asked her “how honest do you really want me to be?” she said she wanted my honest answer. I told her that I loved everything about my job, I had issue with the Dr.’s wife who was the office manager. She was demeaning and unprofessional, that I had tried to overcome that issue for 2 1/2 years, bringing things to the Dr.’s attention only to be told that I just needed to humor her, I finally decided it was not worth it anymore. I then asked her if she was married to any of the providers at this clinic? She laughed and assured me that there were no married couples working together in this clinic. I knew when I met the office manager at CHC that this was a place that I could work! She was friendly yet professional, she was open and sure of herself and genuinely proud of the work they do there. She knew what she was looking for and was precise in her questions about what my skills were. My skill set fits perfectly with what they want. I am very pleased that I get to work here and get to know the people that I will be working with. I went in today to sign some paperwork and they were all very excited that I was going to be joining their team, they made me feel welcome and wanted. That was really nice…being wanted is always good! I still have to find out what I am going to do about David in the afternoon. Michael is willing to take care of him for now, but if he gets a job that won’t work. Michelle is willing to help me out and I may have to take her up on that, but I would rather that she not have to deal with his antics if I can find another way. If I could find someone to stay at the house with him that would be perfect. I am praying about that and trusting that God will answer this need for me. But for now I start work next week, I go to new employee orientation on Monday and then start at the clinic on Tuesday!  I know that there will be issues here also, there always are when you are working with people, but I am able to work with just about anyone with the exception of demeaning and unprofessional people that is. 🙂

Miracle in Welch!

Sunday started out as a normal Sunday, nothing out of the ordinary. We had church in the morning, lunch at Grandma Dorsey’s and then headed to the church for play practice. We were working on scene two for the play when David brought me my cell phone. I had 3 missed calls from Katie (our youth/associate pastor) I knew something was wrong for her to be calling during play practice. She told me that Lady Bug, Kelly’s horse had come back to the house without Kelly. I knew just as they did that something bad had happened. Katie and Cody were already in a vehichle looking for her. As were several other people. We all left practice and split up to find her. She has a favorite place that she goes to be alone with her horse. It is under an underpass by the railroad tracks. She was found lying on her back under the pass. She had fallen  off the retaining wall. This was about a 7 or 8 foot fall. She landed on her left side. She tried to get up but was unable to move. When we got there Charlie and several others helped to move her so her head was not below her body, careful not to move her neck. Then we waited for the ambulance to get there. It took them about 40 min, seemed like longer than that. They wanted to helicopter her out of there as she was rated a level 1 emergency. She was in danger of internal bleeding, possible broken ribs, and had diminshed breath sounds. She was having trouble with her vision, she could feel that her ribs were not in the right place. Once they got on the way to the hospital, by ambulance, (we wouldn’t let them call in a helicopter) they had to stop at Miami Baptist Regional, because her blood pressure dropped to 65/49 in the ambulance. This is when I believe the Lord healed her. When they got her into the ER her blood pressure stabalized, and she began to improve dramatically. They took 5 or 6 X-Rays of her neck, chest and pelvis. All came back normal with no breaks, fractures, or cracks! Now she could feel at the scene that her ribs were not in the right place and she couldn’t breathe well. At the hospital she was completely fine, with nothing more than bruises! At the scene she was a critical enough they wanted to helicopter her out, at the hospital she was able to stand and walk able to get into the truck and ride home sitting up within a couple of hours! God did an amazing work in her body and brought her through. She was supposed to take her Navy PST this morning, that didn’t happen, but the dr said she will be able to take it the next time it comes around in two weeks. She is getting through the day today with minimal pain meds.  We witnessed God take a potentially devastating accident and turn it into a simple matter of some bruises and bumps. I cannot begin to praise Him enough for His Mercy and  Grace to this young lady who has an amazing call on her life. The enemy has attempted to take her life over and over again and over and over again the Lord has said NO!  My Aunt Mary posted on my facebook such a powerful word for Kelly that I want to share with you all on here.

Times such as this, God’s Word becomes ‘Rhema’ (very personal, intimate and powerful) Jeremiah 29:11 tells us He has a plan for Kelly’s life (a good plan, not an evil one) with a future and a hope! As prayer bombarded Heaven ~~ Abba, Father spoke to the evil one ~~ “NO YOU DON’T, SHE IS MINE and I HAVE A PLAN”!!!

Kelly Ann, you and Holy Spirit will walk heart to heart, hand in hand on this journey (called life) fulfilling His precious, powerful plan!

Love and continued blessings sweet girl!

I have not posted for some time now…

So much has been happening and there just hasn’t been time to sit down and blog.
Stephanie graduated from K-State with masters in architecture, Michael graduated from High School and they graduated on the same day! That was an interesting feat to make it to both graduations, but we did it and are so proud of both of them! I would post pics but I don’t have them downloaded from the camera yet! My brother also graduated from college on the same day as my kids, we didn’t get to see that but I am proud of him too! It’s a big deal for such an old man to accomplish so much!!! Congrats to all three of you!

We have been consumed with the aftermath of the tornado that ripped through the heart of Joplin MO last Sunday, the devastation is beyond words and heartbreaking. Charlie has worked everyday since Sunday from sun-up to sun-down most days. There is so much to do and so many people displaced. There are the most amazing stories of Gods protection and stories of horror as well. Very difficult to wrap your head around the effects of destruction like this. There is a lot of work ahead of this community, they are a strong group and they are going to come through strong!

This weekend I have all my kids home but Stephanie, just working in Joplin and tonight relaxing and watching a movie.

We may have our miracle where michael is concerned. Keep praying we still have some big decisions to make. We know God will direct us and give us wisdom to do what is right for Michael.

events of the last week…

Well lets see, Brandie from work took another position in another office. She is working with Stacey, our previous wonderful OC which I miss so much! I am missing them both. There are so many changes going on at the work front! We are moving in a couple of months to Galena and there is sooooo much work to be done! We are going to be going all electronic, that will be really nice, I.hate.chart.hunting! I do not know how so many charts get lost, we are constantly looking for a chart it seems! We always find them, it is just frustrating when you have to look all through the office.

Other things happening…well the most traumatic thing this week was Holly’s accident on Tuesday night. We were at the game to see Kelly perform in the Winter Guard, Charlie got a call from Holly telling him she had been in an accident. She was very upset and crying. He told her we were on our way and we left the school, headed home to get Davids meds and headed for KC. Ihad called my cousin Tanya to let her know Holly had been in an accident and she went to the hospital to be with Holly till we could get there We got there around 11pm, she had already been released from the hospital and we met her up at her house. We decided to bring her home and keep her here for a couple of days. Charlie and Holly went to KC the next day to get her car out of the wrecker yard, you know they charge out the wazoooo to keep your car in a place like that. They charged us for 3 days! The car was there from Tuesday night to Thursday morning! They were there to pick it up before the place opened and yet they were still charged rental for a 3rd day, very frustrating. Anyway all that is just stuff and money…the good thing is God’s protection on my daughter! She walked away with minimal injury. She is sore from the impact but otherwise she is fine. She turned left at an intersection and hit an oncoming car. She thought she had a green arrow, but apparently it was only a green light. Charlie has found a front end for her car and is going to replace it for her. It is red and her car is blue! She is not real happy about that. We are going to check into what it would cost to have it painted. The timing for this is not good, but when is it ever good? I am taking her back to KC Saturday. She is ready to get back to her friends, work, church and life! She is missing several dance classes, but she wouldn’t have been able to go to class, she was much to sore and much to groggy from the pain meds! She hasn’t taken any pain meds today and she is doing good. So back to reality for her tomorrow! I am so thankful that God protected her!

Now we are watching “A Walk In the Clouds” with a roaring fire in the fireplace, and promise of a new day tomorrow full of Gods blessings and favor!

happy dance is in order again

I was soooo happy to hear that Stacy decided to accept the position of OC in our office! I have asked her, begged her, guilted her in every way I can think of to get her to take the position, and Friday she accepted it! Of course they had to give her some incentive and they did, I don’t know what all it entailed but I really don’t care. I am just so happy to have a christian (a real one) to work with.  God is so faithful and I am so happy to be able to once again enjoy my job!

Michael and Kelly are gone to camp this week, I am praying that they have a wonderful time and that their lives are touched by the hand of God in a life changing way!

A friends mom died today, such a sad day for the family. She was right the with Lord though and ready to go. The loss of a loved one is never an easy thing.

Stephanie did great this last semester and was put on the Deans honor roll! Fantastic job Stephanie!! Kelly also finished this last semester witha  4.0. She is doing very well in school as well.

Life just keeps going on even when we have loss and when we have joy!

Mothers Day

had a great mothers day, Stephanie came home with Holly, totally suprised me! That was a very nice! I got to have all my children home and my mom and dad as well! I had been dreading mothers day and it turned out to be good. 

Holly’s car is fixed and working! Praise God, Kevin is still without a vehicle but we are working on that.

As for work, our nurse practioner took another position, her nurse tech went to the float pool, and another nurse tech was let go. This all in  one weeks time! Our office staff has decreased by 4 people in less than a month! When they said they were going to clean house they were not kidding! Things are much better at work now. I don’t think this is how the trouble makers thought things were going to play out! God has been faithful to me and to the Dr’s!

And yes, Scott, I am okay, I will overcome the obstacles and I will be victorious…maybe a little crazy too, but victorious none the less!