As I walk with the Lord of Lords and King of Kings, I have to ask myself what is my commitment level? What am I willing to do for and with him? Speak to a total stranger on the street when I know they are hurting and need an encouraging word? What about those who are known to me that I could speak life into but choose to walk on by because I am to busy or lazy to notice? I look at my life and wonder what it would be if I chose to walk in obedience no matter the cost to me and my comfort level. I am by nature a selfish person, I like my alone time, I like to decide when and if I will allow others into my time schedule. This is just the facts. I know that I have missed divine appointments because I have been to selfish to see them. I have missed blessing and healing and encouragement for my own life because of this as well. I don’t want to continue down this path. I want my life to make a difference in the lives of those around me, the ones I know and the ones I will know at a later time. There is so much that God can do in me and through me if I am willing to let Him do it. The cost of living this way is no more selfishness, no more thinking of my own comfort over that of others. Big order for one who is so very into comfort! I am on day 76 of prayer. I didn’t stop at day 40 and this has been an amazing journey. He is changing me, He is doing a work that I know is going to have an impact on my world. But there is such a long way to go…as I am pretty messed up! I am learning that there is great value in a hug, a prayer, a word of hope in someone’s dark place of hurt. That when I speak to someone what I hear the Lord saying they are given a gift of His peace in their situation or hurt. I have seen the Lord answer prayer for healing, jobs, relationships, etc…Love seeing God work in the lives of those I am circling in prayer! Some haven’t yet been healed or gotten the job, or are still battling in relationships, but that doesn’t mean it won’t be answered! I want to walk in faithfulness that is life changing for not only me but those around me that need Jesus! So as I have asked myself the question of what my commitment level is, I am asking you the same. What is your commitment level? What are you willing to allow God to do with and through you?
I have such a great Leader, I don’t even hardly know how to act! I find that she is compassionate, funny, reliable, does her job well and makes everyone around her feel like secure in their own job as well. I don’t know that I have ever had such a great Leader before. I am so thankful and probably more grateful after enduring Sheila and then Jeane. There is a Huge difference in working for someone who is secure in their job and someone who is insecure! And then there is the side of her that is so very good to David. Yesterday I had to have David brought to the office because Michael had piano lessons. Allie came up and started a game of cards with David! He loved that. So did I. I am blessed with so much at my present job and I am so very grateful to God for opening this opportunity to me. I came into this job hurt and disillusioned but now I am doing what I do well and have a great group of people to work with. There are blessing all around us, we just have to be willing to look for them and sometimes a change is required of us. I hated leaving my old job, I really loved working for the Dr but I must say that this move was a very good move for me and has been full of blessing and joy all along the way. God is wonderful, even when things are hard He always comes through. I can trust Him with every detail of my life knowing He has everything under control even when it feels like He isn’t paying attention!
I have been without my computer for 3-4 weeks now. I thought it was just a virus but turns out it was terminal! My hard drive is dead. Soooo I am at a place of deciding if I want to get it replaced or just let it go. I have a new computer now. I am downloading everything that I had saved on Carbonite to my new computer. But, Holly needs a computer and she could use the my old one with a new hard drive. decisions decisions. I haven’t been able to ask Charlie about what he thinks because his phone goes straight to vm. grrr. At this point we are not out any money on the old computer…and the cost of the new hard drive isn’t bad, but if I can’t find the original disks to be put on the new hard drive then we are going to be adding up costs…I guess the first thing I need to do is find those disks. I am pretty sure they are in Charlie’s closet somewhere. According to an article I read a hard drive is 80% more likely to crash after 4 years so apparently mine was one of the 80% that die at age 4…may it rest in peace.