I had my first day at CHC SEK today. It was an orientation day so I haven’t really started work yet, I start at the Center tomorrow morning. I am soooo looking forward to starting work with this medical group. This is a group of people that seem to be genuinely concerned about the people that come there for care. They want to provide them with the best care they can give them from the front to the back. I am impressed with the way they talk about healthcare and meeting these people at their place of need regardless of ability to pay. This has been refreshing. Do they make sure the billing gets done correctly? Yes, that is a priority, they have to be able to pay the bills. But the patients ability to pay doesn’t make a difference in if they will get the treatment they need. So anyway, onto other things…
I went with my daughter, Stephanie to check out a Wedding Venue. It is a beautiful place. She is wanting to have the wedding outside. The place we looked at is set up for ceremony and reception all to be in one place as well as a place for the bride to get ready there on site. I don’t know if this is where she will choose but it was a really nice . They are planning to keep the wedding small, with just those who are closest to them. They also don’t want to have children there. She said something about all guests being at least 14 to attend. That isn’t set in stone yet, but I am pretty sure that is the direction they are going to go with this. I will give updates as they come in…I am so excited for Stephanie and Corbin, this is going to be fun!
So for now I am signing off, and heading to bed. This day has exhausted me. The emotional drain of leaving my previous job and finally getting this new one, coupled with Kelly and Tim getting married and Stephanie and Corbin getting engaged has really taken a toll on me! So many Big changes in such a short time is hard on a body! But they have been good changes for me! I am blessed!
my children are all adults now and quite capable of taking care of themselves, but you know what that doesn’t change how it feels when someone is unkind to them. I understand why this woman has been so unkind. She is jealous of what they have and she is incredibly insecure in her own life. But my kids are 19 and 20 this woman is in her 50’s! She has two teenage daughters, if they were treated or spoken to in the manner she has felt compelled to treat my children she would be all up in the face of whoever dared to treat them that way. I have not been in her face about how she has treated my children, nor has Charlie. My children are adults and have handled the situations with far more maturity and character than this woman has shown the entire time she has been here. She just moved here and seems to be quite unhappy with her life, her situation, and everything that is happening around her. I have had to come to the conclusion that I can allow her to infect my life with her misery or I can refuse to allow her access to my heart and mind. We all make decisions in life, we all have things that we have to face and deal with that are not fun or comfortable. But we also all have the choice to let those things make us better rather than bitter. We can teach our children to overcome life’s challenges or we can teach them to blame others and never learn anything from the hard lessons. I am very proud of how well my children, Michael and Kelly, have handled themselves with the way this woman has thrown hurtful words and actions at them like they are targets for her arrows and fiery darts. They both recognized her sorry and pitiful life, they both realized that they were not the problem, but that the problem was hers. Although what she said was hurtful they have both been able to forgive and move on. They both chose to let it go and not allow her to have that kind of power over them. Does this mean that she is going to go without being challenged? No I believe that she will be held accountable for her actions. I don’t know who will hold her accountable…probably not me, that is unless she says something stupid to me, then it will probably be me 🙂 It just really confounds me that there are people out there who say they are Christians yet they are so bitter and unforgiving, full of hate and malice towards innocent people that have nothing to do with the place they are in their life. Such a pitiful and sad life to live. To have the grace and mercy of God available and to even profess that you are under it, yet you live in such darkness and deception. I have no room for anger towards this woman, only pity and sadness that her life is what she has made it. She touched my children and she hurt them, but because of the training that my children have had they rose above the hurt to see the real problem and chose to handle themselves with maturity and character. So Very Proud Of Them!!!
It was 6 weeks of no calls, no interest and then I am getting called for interviews. I accepted the job at CHC SEK on Wed and that is the job that I wanted, but today I got a call from Freeman wanting to do a second interview. I turned it down, but it sure feels good to know that I am wanted! Feels good to know that God not only provided me another job but gave me a choice! He is pretty cool isn’t he? This last dark time I walked through is over, and the sun is shining again…I don’t like the dark, but I must say that it sure makes you appreciate the sunshine!!
other exciting news…Stephanie and I are going to check out a venue for her wedding on Monday. Springhouse Gardens is the name of the place and it looks really nice by the pictures. Wedding planning has begun! I will keep you posted as we move forward and when we have a date!
I have been unemployed for 6 weeks and then Boom I get an interview on Monday and am offered the job on Wednesday! I must tell you that this last 6 wks have been a rough time for me. I have struggled with forgiving Dr’s wife, I have struggled with rather or not anyone would be willing to hire me if they knew I was unable to work out my differences with her. It is a question that is asked by every job application I filled out. “Why did you leave your previous job?” Who is going to even look at me if I am honest about that question? How much info do I give? As little as possible…So what to say? There was no room for growth at my previous place of employment.
I was asked at my interview on Monday what I liked least about my previous job…I asked her “how honest do you really want me to be?” she said she wanted my honest answer. I told her that I loved everything about my job, I had issue with the Dr.’s wife who was the office manager. She was demeaning and unprofessional, that I had tried to overcome that issue for 2 1/2 years, bringing things to the Dr.’s attention only to be told that I just needed to humor her, I finally decided it was not worth it anymore. I then asked her if she was married to any of the providers at this clinic? She laughed and assured me that there were no married couples working together in this clinic. I knew when I met the office manager at CHC that this was a place that I could work! She was friendly yet professional, she was open and sure of herself and genuinely proud of the work they do there. She knew what she was looking for and was precise in her questions about what my skills were. My skill set fits perfectly with what they want. I am very pleased that I get to work here and get to know the people that I will be working with. I went in today to sign some paperwork and they were all very excited that I was going to be joining their team, they made me feel welcome and wanted. That was really nice…being wanted is always good! I still have to find out what I am going to do about David in the afternoon. Michael is willing to take care of him for now, but if he gets a job that won’t work. Michelle is willing to help me out and I may have to take her up on that, but I would rather that she not have to deal with his antics if I can find another way. If I could find someone to stay at the house with him that would be perfect. I am praying about that and trusting that God will answer this need for me. But for now I start work next week, I go to new employee orientation on Monday and then start at the clinic on Tuesday! I know that there will be issues here also, there always are when you are working with people, but I am able to work with just about anyone with the exception of demeaning and unprofessional people that is. 🙂
Today at 3 and then another one tomorrow at 10am for different office. I really don’t know what direction, if any, my life is getting ready to take. I have Big concerns about what I will do with David. He has been so happy having me home…and I have hated being home! I am trusting God to bring about a job that will accommodate both of us. Only God can do that!
been an eventful and good week. Kelly and Tim arrived a week ago Wednesday and it has been a great visit from the get go! I must say that having a young man sleeping with my daughter in her room is, well, weird! But we have gotten used to that, sorta! They have Charlie and I playing Dragon City, a stupid facebook game that I have no idea what I am doing on. I just feed and breed the dragons and fight the battles, but have no idea what I am actually supposed to do in this game! LOL anything to connect with my kids! gotta stay up with them right? Well at least that is my excuse!
I have had to work really hard at not letting myself be depressed even with all the stuff going on! I really wonder how much longer I am going to feel this! I don’t want to go back to my job, not anymore, I am past that now, but it sure would be nice to have a job to go to! I am not one for sitting around the house with nothing to do. Charlie wants me to pick my scrapbooking hobby back up…thought about it. I do have plenty of stuff that needs to be done around here. Closets, drawers, filing cabinets and desk all need to be cleaned out and the junk gotten rid of…and then there is all the stuff outside that really needs to be cleaned out…like I said it isn’t that I have a shortage of things to do! I honestly don’t want just any job and quite frankly if there were something that I could do at home and get paid for that would be ideal for me. I am not a salesman though and so that definitely limits my options!
We have yet another play that we have tried out for. MLT is doing “A Christmas Carol” this December! It will be a very good distraction for me and Charlie is going to do this with me, even though he is way to busy to do it! He has been so supportive of me and really has made this transition easier. “Smokey Joes Café” was a great big HIT! We had so much fun doing this show, I hope that the next one is as much fun…but it is full of kids and that means that we will hear a lot of yelling trying to get everyones attention during practices and that grinds on my nerves pretty quick…all part of the process.
We are heading out to dinner in Joplin tonight. This is our last night with Kelly and Tim. Kevin and April are coming from Springfield to have dinner with us, Corbin and Stephanie will be there as well as Michael and David so we will have 10 of us tonight…nice big bill to pay at the end of dinner, but so worth it! I wish we could have Holly with us, she will be the only one not there! Kelly and Tim will be going to see her tomorrow in KC though. My family is growing and I must say that my children have chosen well. They each have a mate that compliments and makes them whole. That is Fantastic and blesses me! Thank you God for answering my prayers and bringing the right mates to my children at the right time. I know that Holly and Michael will each find the right one in God’s time and I am so looking forward to meeting them!
Well I have rambled on long enough and probably have lost all 3 of my readers already! Talk with you all later! And thanks for taking the time to stop by and listen to me! It means a lot!
I do not like looking for a job! I do not like applying at place after place and not hearing anything from anyone! It is frustrating that I am not even given a chance to talk with anyone. But on the other hand I have placed this whole job thing in God’s hands and I am trusting Him to open up the door when it is time for me to return to work. So in the meantime I will enjoy my time off and keep applying for jobs as they come to my attention. God will open the right door at the right time. And He will also provide the funds to meet our bills and help Stephanie with her wedding.
I am enjoying being able to go to lunch with my family or friends at the drop of a hat, I am enjoying being home in the morning and getting David off in the morning without having to hurry, I am enjoying taking a nap in the afternoon if I feel like it.
Today I went to my old office, as I got a text telling me that the Dr and his wife were away and it was safe to come in and see my old co-workers. It was so good to see them. It has only been a month but it feels like longer than that. They are doing just fine. They miss me like I miss them but they are getting things done without me. The office is a sad place. I hate that, we always had such a good time there even when things were tense we were able to laugh and get through it. On a good note I can report that the office manager is making an effort to get to know the girls and build relationship with them. If she can keep that up she just may earn their respect. They are not sure this will continue, in fact they are just waiting for the old hateful office manager to show back up…it is her usual way, but God can change anyone, even her. For the sake of the office I do hope that this is a real change in her and that the old is gone.
Every trace of me has been removed from the office, but they can’t take away the influence I had on the staff or the patients. The relationships I built there will last, and my memory will live on in the hearts and minds of those who loved me there. As their memory lives on in my heart. I am supposed to go to dinner with some of them next week. I am looking forward to that, but I know that my contact with them will be minimal from now on. That is sad 😦
Fun note: We will be going to Grove tonight to practice for our Smokey Joes Café performance tomorrow night on Monkey Island. This is such a fun show and I am glad that we have another opportunity to get together with this amazing cast! I have so enjoyed working with them and getting to know new people as well as reconnecting with old friends! The talent in this cast is such a pleasure to be around, they are funny, they sing and play instruments with such beauty and they really enjoy working hard and making things perfect for the audience. This show has been the least stressful show I have been in with the MLT. Usually there is quite a bit of tension as we get closer to show-time, but this show came together so well and the only real problems we had were sound related and trying to get all the microphones to work at the right time! This was a great distraction for me as I worked through quitting my job! Timing is everything and God has perfect timing!
This month has been an emotional month with ups and downs. Questions about if I did the right thing or not. Did I jump to soon ( I only gave it 2 1/2 years!)
On Sunday I put on a pair of pants I had not worn for a year…they fit! Yay! But I digress. There was a piece of paper in my back pocket, so I pulled it out to see what it was. It was a message that was sent back and forth between me and the office manager (I use the term office manager very loosely here) I had asked for something to be changed to make the front office run smoother in the morning…after reading that message it made me mad all over again and that had happened a year ago! The problem that I had addressed last year is still a big problem in the office and the girls are still expected to take extra time consuming steps that are stupid and a waste of time for everyone involved. That being said, I knew that I had made the right choice and I also think that I should have left much sooner than I did. I gave my everything to make that job work. One of the things that the Dr. told me he liked about me is that I can look at a situation and come up with ways to make it more efficient. He would call me to his office with a problem and I would be able to come up with a solution, usually off the cuff, simply because that is how I think. But from the time he went independent and his wife came on board I was no longer able to use my skills and abilities to make the office run better. Every time I would say something it was shut down. And if by chance something did actually get changed I would eventually get in trouble for it because it wasn’t her “idea” therefore it should not have happened. Anyway I just wanted to share that I am at peace with my decision to leave the Practice and I know for sure and for certain that I made the correct decision! I am still looking for another job, I have submitted so many applications that I am starting to lose track of them. I did finally apply for unemployment yesterday. Dr. told me that he accepted my resignation but he didn’t want me to stay the two weeks, that he of course would pay me for the two weeks though. Well….he didn’t pay me for the two weeks. I gave them a month to do this and the check never came. So I went ahead and applied for unemployment. I don’t know if I qualify for it or not, but I owe it to myself to at least look into it.
On to better news…Tim and Kelly are on their way here. I am so excited to see them! They have been married for nearly a month now! They will be here for a couple of days and then off to Alaska for a few weeks. Grandma Dorsey is heading to Alaska as well. Her granddaughter Julie is getting married, Sooo they will all be in Alaska together. Such a great time of their lives together! I am so blessed that they are together and that they are doing so well.
And other news…My sweet daughter Stephanie is now engaged to Corbin! He asked her last week and she said a very Big YES! I am so excited for them as well. Our family is growing and we couldn’t be happier about it!
Corbin and Stephanie