2012 in review

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2012 annual report for this blog.

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The new Boeing 787 Dreamliner can carry about 250 passengers. This blog was viewed about 1,000 times in 2012. If it were a Dreamliner, it would take about 4 trips to carry that many people.

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Christmas was a great day

Family time playing games and laughing!

Family time playing games and laughing!

Papa and Kelly Ann

Papa and Kelly Ann

Charlie got me a new Kitchen Aid Mixer for Christmas! I have wanted one of these for 26 years!

Charlie got me a new Kitchen Aid Mixer for Christmas! I have wanted one of these for 26 years!

Mema doing her best to make me cry! She says the nicest things about me!

Mema doing her best to make me cry! She says the nicest things about me!

Charlie got Mema a new wig for Christmas!

Charlie got Mema a new wig for Christmas!

Papa giving Charlie his gifts that just kept coming and coming! Charlie came away with the big Haul!

Papa giving Charlie his gifts that just kept coming and coming! Charlie came away with the big Haul!

Stephanie with a picture of her gift from Corbin, it was to big to wrap!

Stephanie with a picture of her gift from Corbin, it was to big to wrap!

Corbin and Stephanie

Corbin and Stephanie

Michael

Michael

David

David

Mema and Papa

Mema and Papa

Charlie and David

Charlie and David

Papa and Holly

Papa and Holly

We had most of the children home and my mom and dad were with us as well. I love having my family around me! We didn’t do anything big just spent time together talking playing games, eating, eating and eating!

My first born Daughter turned 25 on Saturday!

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what the Heck? How is it possible that my baby girl is now 25 years old? I spent the afternoon saturday with her and enjoyed every minute I got to be with her. She is an absolute delight. She has the sweetest disposition, always has, even as a baby and child she has been delightful to have around. She is such a smart, beautiful and amazing young woman. I am so proud of her! I love her with everything in me and want her to have a happy successful life! I have witnessed her succeed in college graduating with a Masters in Architecture, get a job that is challenging in a tough economy. I continue to lift her up in prayer as she has turned her back on the Lord and the training of her childhood. God is faithful and I have every confidence that the Word of God that is planted deep inside of her will bring her back to himself. My heart breaks and aches as I watch her live a life that is against everything that we stand for, but that is not up to me to change and I am only responsible to pray for her. I love her and love to spend time with her inspite of her lifestyle choices. She is still my daughter and she is still loved by God and still being pursued by Him. If you think of her please lift her up in prayer. The lies of the enemy are strong and the deception is strong, but the Word of God and His truth are stronger! Someday I will see her come back to her roots. Until then I will continue to pray for her and love her with everything in me. I love you my Stephanie Michelle, you are a bright shining star in my heart!

Rants of a disgruntled employee with an attitude check

chocolateI was driving to work this morning totally not wanting to go in and deal with the drama that is my work place right now. I prayed this morning asking God to help me with my stinky bitter attitude…and guess what? He did! I chose today to hand it over to God and let Him work in my heart and my attitude. I chose to not let things bother me today, to just let it roll off and not fret about them. I did well most of the day and the times I didn’t I was quickly reminded by the Holy Spirit that I had a choice, to get upset and have heartburn or to let it go and walk in peace. It is not my responsibilty to fix everything, only the things that I can. So I just thought I would let the few of you that read my blog know that I am ok, and that I have returned to my sweet attitude (sweet for me) and not continued in my bitter, heart burn inducing bad attitude. Some days are just going to be rough and dwelling on them dosn’t help the situation, but it certainly does make for a waste of my time! As long as I have plenty of chocolate I will be fine! That and the ever faithful checks of the Holy Spirit telling me to get a grip!

frustration, anger, just plain feeling helpless

I love my job, I love working for a Dr that is good at what he does and cares so much for his patients. I love what I have been learning and how much I have grown in the last 4 years. But I am frustrated beyond words right now with how things are being run in our office. I have expressed my frustration with his wife/office manager before, nothing really new there. But this last couple of weeks have been so bad that I have considered just walking out the door and not turning back. So I am going to vent on here for a bit, if you don’t want to hear it you are more than welcome to stop reading now…you have been fairly warned.

When I send a message that we are in need of office supplies,like high lighters, tape, white out, copy paper…etc why do I have to answer questions like what do we need these things for? Or who is using them and why are we out of these things? Really? This is an office, there are 9 people working in this office and supplies are going to be needed and used! I am so sorry that we go through paper so quickly, but is it really appropriate for you to treat me like I am taking the paper home? Why are high lighters needed and who is using them? Ummmm that would be anyone who is needing to high light things on the paperwork, who is using the tape and what are they using the tape for? I don’t know! I don’t care! They are using the tape for whatever it is that they need tape for! And really why do we need white out? REALLY? Oh I don’t know I guess it is so we can make corrections on stuff without having to print more paperwork!!! All I am asking for are some basic office supplies! They arn’t even terribly expensive! I buy my own paper for my printer at home, I use my own highlighter at home, I buy my own tape for my dispenser at home, and if I need white out at home I buy my own! But at this rate I am going to have to purchase these things for work to? I am not paid enough to supply our office with office supplies! Why is this such a big deal? One of our nurses already buys her own supplies.

Next, I am tired of getting in trouble for the schedule not being right or for there being patients on there with problems the Dr dosn’t want to see them for. He has specific things he wants to see patients for and certain times he wants to see them. But his wife/office manager gets in the schedule and sends me messages to move patients or to put someone in that I know he dosn’t want on his schedule, or she makes appointments that we know nothing about till we get to work and find them on the schedule! The schedule is not easy to maintain, it is like a living breathing child that misbehaves all the time, about the time I think it is in order everything gets thrown up in the air and changed! And guess what? I get blamed for the problem.

Next, who is in charge around there? The Dr? His wife/office manager? Who is really the boss? She comes in only once in awhile (thank God!) but when she does come in she causes so much uhheaval that it takes me days to get past what she has created! The whole atmosphere changes in the office the minute she walks in the door, I swear the tempature even changes! I am very very tired of this, it hasn’t changed in the year and a half that we have been in private practice and I know it isn’t going to change in the future…so what do I do? Just keep doing what I have been doing and stay? Or do I just say goodbye and good luck?

I really, really like my job! I am paid a pittance. Pretty sure I am the lowest paid person in our office. And yet I have an awful lot of responsibilty for everything that happens in this office. All the way down to the fact that Dr didn’t sign off on a pathology report! I just feel defeated and unappreciated, frustated and angry. Today was bad, very bad! I did manage to keep my comments civil, but there were things said and issues addressed. I don’t like confrontation, I don’t like to face issues if they can be resolved without confrontation. But this cannot be resolved without confrontation. I confronted some today,. but there is much more I need to do…if I am going to continue working there. Of course I will keep working there…which makes it even more frustrating. I know I am valuable, yet I am paid as though I am not. And I allow it…

I could go on about things, I have hardly even scratched the surface of what has me on the verge of tears! And for those of you who know me will know that to bring me to a point of tears is saying a lot! I hate to feel helpless and stuck, right now I feel helpless and stuck!

And then there is what is going on with David and his horrific behavior that is weighing heavily on me right now as well. He is fine at home but when he goes to Class he is HORRIBLE! I may have my dilema solved for me at work if I end up having to quit my job so I can stay home with him. Blaaaa Blaaa Blaaaaa!