Sometimes I just get tired of being

a mom to a special needs son. You know I do everything for him, I bathe him, dress him, feed him, tuck him in bed, clean his room, wipe his butt…and on and on it goes. This guy absolutely loves his momma, and his momma absolutely loves him! But, lets face it, most moms are done with this extent of care after a few years, but I have had David for 26 years now. Yesterday he and I had a confrontation, he wouldn’t put his socks on, he wanted me to put his socks on for him! I refused to put his socks on and was pretty upset with him for throwing the fit he did! Then I feel bad because I got so mad at him. I stay even keeled with him most the time, but there are times that I just don’t handle things very well and yesterday was one of those days. David really hates it when I am upset with him, but not enough to do what I say when he dosn’t want to do whatever it is I told him to do.
And then there is the joy of being the mom of a teenage daughter! I can do nothing right and nothing is ever enough. I went to pick her up from school today and she was annoyed with me because I didn’t drop what I was doing immediately when she called and go get her. No, I took the time to finish typing a sentence, put my sons coat on him and get out the door, but hey I should have just walked out the door without taking care of anything, because the princess called! Boy, I guess I am rather fed up with some of the people living in my house right now!
And then there is my daughters boyfriend who said he would come with her to Thanksgiving, and then backed out at the last minute! Sooooo because of that I only got to have her for a couple of hours on Thanksgiving day instead of the whole day because she went to his families for the remainder of their Thanksgiving break. They are supposed to be here for Christmas, but when I spoke with her today she said that now he is talking about Christmas time with his family. She was wanting to know our plans so they could plan when they would be with us and when they will be with his family. I don’t know what to think, as his family was supposed to be going to Texas for Christmas but now those plans have apparently changed. I think that I need to start resigning myself to only getting my daughter for a few hours on Christmas too. I don’t want to alienate this young man who may become my son-in-law, but don’t you think he possibly should make some effort to be on my good side as well…tired of doing all the giving and him all the taking. He has lost a lot of the ground that he had won with me, I don’t trust him to do what he says he will do, and I am not so sure that he is going to be a good husband for my daughter. Being a man of your word and doing what you say you will do even when it is inconvenient or undesirable shows character, but the oposite shows you to be selfish and untrustworthy. I know a lot of women who are married to men of this caliber. They are very unhappy in their marriages. I truly hate to see my daughter walk into that life, but it is her life. I will be here for her no matter what happens. And there is the off chance that I am totally reading this young man all wrong…if that is the case I will be very grateful!
We all want the best for our children and it is so hard when we see them making choices that will come back to torment them in later years.

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4 thoughts on “Sometimes I just get tired of being

  1. We are praying for you sweetheart. I know you get tired, just know daddy and I are praying for you. You are an awsome mom to 6 wonderful kids and you are a wonderful example to them. Keep up the good work. They are coming along great and God is faithful when we remain faithful. He will do what we cannot do. Your love makes all the difference in the world to all who will allow you to have influence in their lives. I love you sooooo much!!! Mom

  2. Thanks for being so candid concerning parenting a special needs child. I too get weary, as it seems I have Kris with me all the time, and could use a break. I know she doesn’t have the same needs as David, but she is challenging with her own special needs…I must remind myself to just walk in the grace God gives me everyday, because the future will have it’s own grace. I love you, and I’m here walking it out with you, always will!

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