I checked out my blog stats just now and to my surprise there were 36 of you on my blog yesterday and only 2 of you commented. Now come on you guys how am I supposed to know what you have to say if you won’t say it? There is that little “comments” button. Click it and then leave me feedback, I’m tired of talking to myself all the time! Ok I am done! Let me know you were here, I don’t bite…hard 🙂
I have lost 9.6 lbs so far on this round of hcg, I am one week in. Today has been hard where the cravings are concerned. You know sometimes chocolate just screams your name and it takes all your willpower to ignore it! So far so good…I have 2 wks to go on the vlcd (very low calorie diet) and then I can eat more. Still have to stay away from carbs and sugars though, so the chocolate is still OUT! Yikes! My family dosn’t help, they still eat whatever they want and have no problem eating in front of me. This is showing me how determined I am that is for sure. It is always a battle in the mind more than the body. I think that some hot tea by the fire should take care of the cravings, at least that is what I tell myself. 30#’s to go, I can do this, I will do this!
David is doing much better this week. He seems much more peaceful. Should have followed the check in my spirit months ago.
Kelly is going to a teen girl retreat this weekend. She is taking a friend (Cabrina) along. I think this is going to be a great weekend for them. “The Sisterhood of the Traveling Armour” is going to be introduced to the girls this weekend. It is an intense descipleship program designed for teen girls. Kelly has been interested in it since she first heard me talking about it a couple of months ago. This is going to be a great oportunity for her to connect with girls her age that are passionate for Jesus. Both Kelly and Cabrina are seeking a closer relationship with Jesus and are willing to pay the price to get it. Very blessed to watch them grow and develop in this relationship with God Almighty. Exciting things are to come this weekend. I will be visiting with my mom for the weekend and that too is exciting for me. I love to spend time with her and this will be twice in a months time! woo hoo!
Michael finished three classes in the time frame he had for one class! Very proud of him, he is working so hard to graduate this year and it is looking like he is going to be able to do it. He is my miracle young man and what a blessing he is to me. I would have had a very hard time wrapping my head around the possiblity that he would be where he is now 1 year ago, but God is so faithful and he hears the cry of a mothers heart. We still have a rough road ahead of us, things are still not all resolved surrounding the choices he made and the consequences of those choices, but God will continue to be faithful to him and us, and we can walk through anything with the Lord by our side leading, comforting, giving wisdom, discernment, encouragement and provision!
All these bring challenges that the average person does not understand. They can be very demanding, needy, and even destructive. David is all of these things from time to time, but not all the time. He has people that he likes and those he does not like. He has his bad days and he has his good days. I never know from day to day what kind of day he is going to have. It can be very difficult finding caregivers for a special needs person, no matter their age. but especially as an adult. Your average person is reluctant to help out. I have been blessed with a couple of people who have been very good with him, or at least I think they are. The thing is that if David is a problem for those who are caring for him and they don’t tell me about it I cannot do anything about it. I may not be able to fix it even if I know, but please if you are the caregiver of a special needs person and you find yourself or family members getting angry with them because of their behaviour let someone know that there is a problem. How are we, the parents or guardians, supposed to correct a problem if we don’t know there is one? If you are reading this and you are one of David’s caregivers please let me know if he is being a problem I can not help if I do not know. I would rather find him another caregiver than have you or family members mad at him, resenting his presence in your home. Living with a special needs adult, or being the caregiver for one is very challenging. There are days that you just want/need a break. The fits of rage (these are not as bad now that he is medicated) the broken things in the house, the dents in my car because it was locked when he wanted to get in it. The refusal to obey me at times and the challenging of my authority these are all part of an average week with David. He is an absolute delight most of the time, but when things are stressfull he reacts to it. When he has broken things, most of the time, it was provoked by something or someone. Not to say that it was provoked on purpose or even knowingly. It is true that God gives these precious souls to us in trust. It isnt easy to care for them and it certainly isn’t a fun job, but it can be very rewarding and there will be a special blessing for those who treated them right. If you are a parent, grandparent or caregiver to one of these gifts from above, treat them right, love them, and get help when you need a break, there is nothing wrong with getting help.
Just a shout out to my friend Ashley who has a special needs little girl, I know how hard it is sweetie and I am lifting you up in prayer, stay close to the Lord and He will bring you and your family through!
Okay I’m done for now….TTYL
We are studying from Mark Batterson’s book “Wild Goose Chase” on Wednesday nights. Last night was our first night and there were some very challenging questions to be answered. Have we placed God in a box? Are we expecting Him to follow us instead of us following Him? Are we willing to take a risk and experience God on His terms? I was challenged to take a close look at my own relationship with God and where I am. I find that I don’t like what I see. I have become very comfortable in my lifestyle, go to church, go to work, to home…impact very few people for God, take no chances, stay under the radar. BORING! Is this really what the church has been reduced to? Are we as a church so domesticated that we can not be used by God in the wild world that so desperately needs him? Are we so domesticated that if we were to step into the wild we would be eaten alive? I think that I am there, I don’t want to be in this place though. I want to be in the center of God’s will, reaching a lost and dying world for Him. This study is going to be a good one. I don’t want to waste time anymore. I have watched myself and others allow bitterness to destroy them, but the greatest thing is that God forgives and restores us to right relationship with him and others.
I think I could get used to the empty nest thing! Of course I still have David here…but all the other kids are gone for the weekend. Michael and Kelly have gone on a trip to KC for a music field trip. They are going to the theatre to see Shrek on stage. They always really hava a good time on these trips. they have to be dressed up to eat at a nice restaurant. I will post of pic of them in their duds if they take a picture for me.
We went to Springfield to get my hcg this morning. Had breakfast at IHop with Kevin and his roommate, Michael, kinda weird that his roommates name is Michael! Kevin didn’t have much time to spend with us so we didn’t hang around for long. We did buy him a beard trimmer though! He needed that, kinda scruffy looking!
Holly will be home next weekend to clean Dorothy’s house so Eulie can move in at the end of the month. I am looking forward to seeing her again. Stephanie is doing great at school right now. She seems to be quite content with her life as it is. Things will be changing drastically for her after this semester. She graduates in May. We are very proud of her and all she has accomplished. I know that the promises of God are true and that He is faithful and will take care of her, every step of the way. Even if she thinks she dosn’t need or want His help.
Scott is home! He made it home safely. Haven’t gotten to talk with him yet so I don’t know what all went on in Haiti, but I will get to talk with him soon I hope!
Kelly is going to the Girls Retreat at the end of the month, they are going to be introducing a new descipleship program for the girls that are serious about going deeper with God. It is called The Sisterhood of the Traveling Armour, Kelly is pretty pumped about this. Possibly she will have some of her friends from church go with her. My plan is to spend the time with my mom in Witchita while Kelly is at the camp ground. Michael and Kelly are also going to PK retreat in March. They are pretty excited about that too. Michael has to keep his grades up and all assignments have to be turned in before he can go, but that is good that gives him incentive to keep on task with his school work.
went to a purse party last night and laughed till tears rolled and my head hurt! It felt good to laugh and laugh! It is true that laughter is very good medicine! I got the Leah shell for my purse this time. It is really pretty and has a little bit of different design. Fun times and definately glad that I went . I now have 6 shells with this purchase and I also got a closet organizer and some more handles. My handles are getting frayed. these purses are pretty cool. Check them out if you havent yet. Well I guess I will get off of here for now. TTYL!
It is snowing and cold out! We are sitting by the fire in the house enjoying the quiet! I am going to read after I put David to bed, he is begging me to let him go to sleep. It is only 8pm! I don’t know what the day will bring tomorrow. If the roads are bad I will be staying home with David, not going to work sounds really really good! Not that work has been bad! I enjoy my job, but I do like the idea of sleeping in on a cold wintery morning!
I am wondering how my friend is doing,she went into labor a month early and I haven’t heard yet if they stopped labor or if she had the baby…really praying that all is well with her and this precious life.
I think that I am going to put this to bed for now and read my book that I have on my bookclub page. This is a very good book! Never read any books by this author before but she is quite good. Check it out.
And welcome Amy to my Blog! Glad you could join me and the other three faithful ones!