OK so what is going on?

David had a BIG fit at his afternoon caregivers house today. I had to leave work early to come get him. He was screaming, slamming his fist into the floor and throwing things around, and hitting himself in the head. I don’t know if this is because of medication changes or what.

Had my review at work today, first one since I started at Freeman. When I worked for Walmart my reviews were always very good, I am a hard worker or so I thought. At my job now I am only average. That was what my review said. I am average. I have stayed with this job through some pretty mean stuff, I have continued to do my job and do it well. I have stayed even when I have wanted to run because of the things that have been said and done. Accusations that have been made. And now I find out that I am only average. Don’t know what I am doing still here. They don’t pay squat and yet I stay. Wondering why right now. Maybe it is time to move on. Now understand I am not a slacker, I work the ENTIRE time I am at work. I do not stand around and talk, I don’t play games on my phone, if I don’t have anything to do I find something to do. I do not consider myself to be average, and so I feel stunned by this review. I didn’t say anything, I probably should have. I don’t know what they want. I don’t know what else I need to do. Average…wow. For some this would be fine, for me it means that I am doing poorly. I guess I am going to have to work harder, do more. Or perhaps I am just going to have to get a different job. I have worked in this field long enough now to have connections. Maybe it is time to use them. I am sick to my stomach over this.


4 thoughts on “OK so what is going on?

  1. You’re not average in my book. I wonder what that person who gave you the review is trying to prove.
    What is God trying to say to you thru this experience. You are marvelous in His sight!

  2. If I were to guess as to why you are only average, it would be something along the line of the company only having to pay you an average salary. I would think that there are those in the office that truely appreciate you and your effert. I would also guess that those who set your review and raise, probably didn’t want to pay you any more than they had too. Sorry for your disappointment. I understand how your feeling. I have a boss who thinks I’m the greatest thing on earth, but when it comes to raises, the V.P. don’t see anything special so I only get average raises.

  3. thanks for the encouragement! I am doing fine I decided it didn’t matter and I just need to get over it. I know that I am doing a good job, better than good and the Lord knows this as well. He will reward my work and I can trust him with the rest.

  4. okay so maybe I didn’t really understand the review and jumped to conclusions. I actually was rated way above average, I guess that I really need to try to figure these things out before I get all up in arms about things. Didn’t get me a raise though, since MO medicaid is broke and the hospitals and drs won’t be getting paid until NEXT YEAR! How about that healthcare? And they won’t ever be paid for the services this year. How are they supposed to make it this way? IT IS CRAZY!

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