OK so what is going on?

David had a BIG fit at his afternoon caregivers house today. I had to leave work early to come get him. He was screaming, slamming his fist into the floor and throwing things around, and hitting himself in the head. I don’t know if this is because of medication changes or what.

Had my review at work today, first one since I started at Freeman. When I worked for Walmart my reviews were always very good, I am a hard worker or so I thought. At my job now I am only average. That was what my review said. I am average. I have stayed with this job through some pretty mean stuff, I have continued to do my job and do it well. I have stayed even when I have wanted to run because of the things that have been said and done. Accusations that have been made. And now I find out that I am only average. Don’t know what I am doing still here. They don’t pay squat and yet I stay. Wondering why right now. Maybe it is time to move on. Now understand I am not a slacker, I work the ENTIRE time I am at work. I do not stand around and talk, I don’t play games on my phone, if I don’t have anything to do I find something to do. I do not consider myself to be average, and so I feel stunned by this review. I didn’t say anything, I probably should have. I don’t know what they want. I don’t know what else I need to do. Average…wow. For some this would be fine, for me it means that I am doing poorly. I guess I am going to have to work harder, do more. Or perhaps I am just going to have to get a different job. I have worked in this field long enough now to have connections. Maybe it is time to use them. I am sick to my stomach over this.

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