Royals game, spending time with Holly, Lindsays baby born…

lots going on! We went to the Royals vs Yankees game last weekend, game was very WET! We had a 2 hour rain delay, we didn’t stay, David was really tired and so was I! Poor Charlie he would have stayed if it wasn’t for me and David. Holly was willing to stay or go. Sat. Charlie helped Holly get things done around her house. She has a really nice house she is renting with 3 other girls. And she is out of the ghetto!!! Yea!!!

She has a lot going for her right now and I am so happy for her.

And then there was the exciting news that Justice was on his way! He was a couple of weeks early but babies have a way of setting the date for their arrival when they are ready to come! He is adorable and looks so much like his brother! Lindsay is my cousin and such a sweetheart, she is such a good mom and I am so proud of her!

Kevin is all checked into school at CBC now. We decided that it was in his best interest for him to stay on campus rather than live at home and commute. The cost was going to be about the same and he wouldn’t have the 3 hour commute everyday. He is very excited about what the Lord is doing in his life and we are very excited to watch it unfold! As of today he had not met his roommate. That will be interesting. I hope that he has a good one. That can really make a difference as to how much you enjoy your time at school.  But God has directed his steps all along and He will continue to do so.

Last night I got up to check on the house, make sure doors were locked, Michael had come home after I went to bed. I noticed the garage door was left open, so I went out to shut it. I missed one of the steps and fell…hard to the garage floor. I have to say that I have not experienced that kind of pain in a long long time! I landed on my foot sideways and then both knees. I was unable to get up and had cried out when I fell. Michael was in his truck messing with his sound system and heard me. He came running and helped to get me up and back into the house. I was in so much pain that I was about to pass out so I had to sit down in the kitchen before I could go on to my bedroom. Michael got me a drink and a bowl to throw up in. He helped me get to bed and I am grateful that he was around. Charlie was in Springfield with Kevin getting him settled into school. I am very sore today. I have been taking Ibuprophen all day. My foot is bruised all the way through, it is painful to walk on but I am getting around.

Kelly had a job interview today at Pizza Hut and she starts working there in a couple of weeks. She put her application in yesterday and they called her this morning asking her to come in this afternoon for the interview. Yea, one more gainfully employed child!

Michael got a truck this week, practically given to him. It never ceases to amaze me how he has things just fall into his lap! Rather he wants to admit it or not God is working on his behalf and right now it is inspite of him. I know one day God is going to get the attention of those of my children who have turned their back on him. Waiting and watching the enemy lie to them and deceive them is very hard though. The truth will be revealed someday and I pray that they will return to the Lord.

ok so perhaps I am nuts…

I certainly feel like I am on a regular basis! I never know how I am going to react to anything that happens! What happened to the girl who always had the “do I look like I care” attitude toward all the crap that the enemy would throw my way? Now I sometimes have that attitude and others I will disolve into a puddle of tears! My husband, bless his heart, is not accustomed to this! I don’t cry easily…well I didn’t use to!  Now, he never knows what he is going to find at the end of the day. My parents, friends, family all are worried about me because I am totally out of character. But I am here to tell you all that I am going to be fine! I may not be normal or even stable at times, but I am going to be fine. The word tells me that God is my rock, my defense and my hiding place. I have spent a lot of time just hiding in Him. Trials and pain are all part of growing and I am definately growing. Perhaps this whole thing will make me more sensitive to the needs around me…and then again who knows 🙂 I still have my humor and it does peak out of the dark clouds from time to time. I just have to trust God for the rest. pray for me when you think of me, please don’t worry about me I am in the hands of our loving God.

OK so what is going on?

David had a BIG fit at his afternoon caregivers house today. I had to leave work early to come get him. He was screaming, slamming his fist into the floor and throwing things around, and hitting himself in the head. I don’t know if this is because of medication changes or what.

Had my review at work today, first one since I started at Freeman. When I worked for Walmart my reviews were always very good, I am a hard worker or so I thought. At my job now I am only average. That was what my review said. I am average. I have stayed with this job through some pretty mean stuff, I have continued to do my job and do it well. I have stayed even when I have wanted to run because of the things that have been said and done. Accusations that have been made. And now I find out that I am only average. Don’t know what I am doing still here. They don’t pay squat and yet I stay. Wondering why right now. Maybe it is time to move on. Now understand I am not a slacker, I work the ENTIRE time I am at work. I do not stand around and talk, I don’t play games on my phone, if I don’t have anything to do I find something to do. I do not consider myself to be average, and so I feel stunned by this review. I didn’t say anything, I probably should have. I don’t know what they want. I don’t know what else I need to do. Average…wow. For some this would be fine, for me it means that I am doing poorly. I guess I am going to have to work harder, do more. Or perhaps I am just going to have to get a different job. I have worked in this field long enough now to have connections. Maybe it is time to use them. I am sick to my stomach over this.

Last week was NOT a good week!

David had a seizure Wed night while we were at church. He seized for 7 min. this is a very long time to seize, and because of it his anti convulsant was increased. He has recovered fully as far as I can tell. He never did stop breathing thank God! His lips turned blue at one point but he continued to breathe through out.

Then Thursday night or Friday morning actually at 12:30 we got the call from Shauna that Michael, Austin and Shauna had been in an accident. Michael was not coherent he is bleeding and really hurt. They had hit a tree.

When we got there the police and ambulance, fire trucks and neighbors were all present. the girls were walking around dazed and Michael was on a gurney being put in the ambulance. Now you can see the shape the car was in, would you say that God’s hand of protection was on these kids? They could have been crippled or dead and yet the girls walked away at the scene and Michael walked out of the hospital around 4:30 am! They all came away with little more than bruises and scrapes! Michael had a gash in the back of his head from something flying from the back of the car and hitting him in the back of the head, I would like to think it was the hand of God trying to knock some sense into him! Michael got 6 staples in his head to close up the gash.

You know Michael is still saying that it was his driving skills that saved them. He is delusional and refusing to give God Glory for protecting him and his friends. WOW! It seems that is the main thing I can say where he is concerned nowadays. WOW!

We have turned him over to the Lord to deal with as we have done all we know to do and still are making little or no headway. In one fell swoop the Lord took his car away and spanked him. And He didn’t worry about leaving marks! I am not saying that the Lord caused this wreck but I do know that He uses situations like this. What worries me is Michaels refusal to recognize the hand of God in his life. What is it going to take to get his attention?

All I know to do is continue to pray for him, and trust that God is going to take care of the rest

In other news my sweet Kelly Ann failed her physical and will not be able to run cross country this year. She was instructed to get a bone scan of her legs to see if she has stress fractures and until that is done she won’t be allowed to run. She decided that she is just going to be the manager for the cross country team this year. She dosn’t want to get a bone scan since there really isn’t anything that can be done for stress fractures anyway. Poor thing she is not accustomed to failing anything!