assorted nut chronicles

I get tired of people talking about what they know nothing about…

sassychic1 — Tue, 24 Jan 2012 18:08:10 +0000

I am taking the Hcg, yes, I have read about it, yes I know it works, yes I know why it works! But I am tired of people who have nothing to go on but their own opinion telling me that the only reason I am losing is because of the 500 calorie diet I am on! You will lose weight and rather quickly if you are on a 500 cal diet…you will also put all the weight right back on as soon as you begin to eat normally and then some! I have been doing this protocol for over a year (does that sound like a quick weight loss to you) I am following the protocol exactly, I don’t cheat and I am losing weight and KEEPING IT OFF. I could go into the details of why Hcg works and how it works, but I really just needed to blow off some steam for a moment. It isn’t for everyone, but just because it isn’t for you does not give you the right to tell me that I shouldn’t be doing it. If I was going to have problems from it I can assure you it would have happened already. So, can you tell I am a little touchy today? I don’t give my opinion about what you are doing, if I haven’t researched it myself, please give me the same courtesy. (there are some people that are exempt from this “keep your opinion to yourself” request, but they are precious few) Grrrrrrowl! I need a nap!

I am not losing as much as I wanted but

sassychic1 — Sun, 22 Jan 2012 02:02:15 +0000

I am losing! My clothes are all fitting better and I am more comfortable. I am in Wichita this evening, checking on my mom, making sure she is doing ok. She has been pretty sick with some kind of bug that kicked her butt! But she is coming out of it now and has her sense of humor back again. Don’t have much else to report at this time, which is probably good!

New Year and time for Hcg again…

sassychic1 — Sun, 15 Jan 2012 04:01:34 +0000

this last month has not been kind to my body! I have made many poor food choices and the pounds just jump back on! I gained 15 pds over a period of 2 months! That is not ok, I still can wear my smaller clothes, but they were getting tight. I started on my Hcg Tuesday and have now lost 7.4 pds from my top gorge weight, 4.2 from my starting weight. I have my buddy to keep my accountable and we are both doing great our first week. I can tell ya that it is much easier to do this with someone along side. But I do have a twist to it this time, I have been reading the book “Made to Crave” that I heard about from my good friend Melissa B. It is very encouraging and helps to take the focus off of the food and on to God and my relationship with Him. The weight gain goes much deeper than just making poor food choices. It goes to the heart of being malnurished spiritually while my physical body is needing to lose weight. So I am embarking on this quest with far more of a purpose than just losing weight, I want to get my “Want to” in place to seek after God, filling those craving with His presence and not with food that is poisening my body and making me fat. Feeding my Spirit and growing in a close relationship with Jesus. Thank you to Melissa B for her words of encouragement on facebook. If you are interested in this book I have put a link to it on my bookclub page on this blog, as well as this post.

“Made to Crave is the missing link between a woman’s desire to be healthy and the spiritual empowerment necessary to make that happen. The reality is we were made to crave. Craving isn’t a bad thing. But we must realize God created us to crave more of him. Many of us have misplaced that craving by overindulging in physical pleasures instead of lasting spiritual satisfaction. If you are struggling with unhealthy eating habits, you can break the ‘I’ll start again Monday’ cycle, and start feeling good about yourself today. Learn to stop beating yourself up over the numbers on the scale. Discover that your weight loss struggle isn’t a curse but rather a blessing in the making, and replace justifications that lead to diet failure with empowering go-to scripts that lead to victory. You can reach your healthy weight goal — and grow closer to God in the process. This is not a how-to book. This is not the latest and greatest dieting plan. This book is the necessary companion for you to use alongside whatever healthy lifestyle plan you choose. This is a book and Bible study to help you find the ‘want to’ in making healthy lifestyle choices.”

Productive week

sassychic1 — Thu, 29 Dec 2011 17:47:58 +0000

I have the decorations put away for the most part and the house put back together, how quickly this week is going, how quickly this year has gone! I went to the dentist yesterday, had to have a tooth filled…again, same tooth I had filled before but it had started to decay under the filling. Hopefully I won’t have to have a root canal. It is still bothering me today, but not any worse than before. I don’t know if I should get the antibiotics and start on the pain meds or just wait it out. I thought it was going to be better, but I am going to have to take some ibuprophen here soon.

Kevin and April are back from her families place in Montana, they had a great time. I hopefully will get to see them on Jan 2, it will be great to see them again.

I got a call today asking me to talk with a mom of a special needs son who is getting bigger, stronger, and more difficult to deal with. I remember how I wanted to have someone to talk with that had navigated that path before me and there just wasn’t anyone. I have the opportunity to be there for someone else now. I am praying about what the Lord would have me say to her, how to be an encouragement to her. Her son has autism, that is different than David, but the special needs are still there and the frustrations are definately the same. The frustrations are so vast and are so much more than just dealing with the child but also the people that are in your life, trying to help them understand how to deal with your child, how to work through when your child misbehaves and causes problems in relationships, all of the pit falls that are out there and all the people who think they know what to do, but have no clue what it is like to live with a special needs child day in day out. I have to say that there are some people who are not good with a special needs person. We have to be so careful who is given charge of our kids. Some people have good intentions but are just not capable of really dealing with the issues that arise from taking care of these kids. I know David mirrors his enviroment, if it is stressful he is going to be more difficult and destructive to himself and property. I have done everything in my power to keep him calm, medication and keeping my home as peaceful as is in my power to do so. I also encourage those who take care of him to make use of DMG and to try to keep the enviroment calm. Michelle takes care of David in the afternoon and is doing a GREAT job with him, I know she has frustrations with him, but I do appreciate how she talks to me and lets me know if he is misbehaving. I do what I can to help with that, but the whole communication thing is huge, if I don’t know there is a problem I can’t do anything to help with it. I have really struggled with finding out that my son was so horrible on facebook rather then from the people whose home he was being destructive in. If you are a caregiver for a special needs person, please be honest with the family, communication is key to making things work.

Well I have gone on and on here havent I? I really have things I need to be getting done so I am going to get off of here and get to work.

Christmas is over

sassychic1 — Tue, 27 Dec 2011 01:07:38 +0000

How quickly the day flew by! We had a wonderful Christmas eve service at 11pm that took us into Christmas day, hugged the necks of many loved ones and celebrated the birth of our Savior together. Christmas day we slept in, we had our gift exchange which was sweet as usual, for the most part, we do have the emotionally impaired boys still! Our dinner was very good and filling and yummy. The day was amazing clear up to the point of finding out my daughter was leaving early to spend the rest of the day with her boyfriends family. I don’t have a problem with them spending time with his family, quite the contrary, but my issue was this, I was supposed to get all if Christmas. Thanksgiving was cut short because she had to leave to go to his house, he didn’t even come here he stayed with his family for all of thanksgiving. She told me that I would have her for all of Christmas but I had her for less than a full day. As you can tell I’m not handling it very well. I hate it that I am less important, that I will most likely always be “giving up” my time. I can usually bounce back if given enough time to process things, but I got no time to process so it made it nearly impossible for me to enjoy the rest if the evening with those who were staying. We still had our annual ginger bread house competition, something Stephanie had specifically said she wanted to do but left before we had it. I wonder does she feel the loss like I do? Does she miss us at all? Will I ever have my daughter back? Or have I lost her to another family? My heart aches and there seems to be no end to it, even in my sleep I am aware of the terrible loss. She no longer serves the Lord and now she is no longer available to us for more than a few short hours. I am working through it and I will move beyond this hurt. Just needed to get it off my chest, like writing about it will really remove the heaviness that is always there, hovering, waiting to overcome me. By Gods grace His Spirit is always there keeping me, comforting and encouraging. Sorry for the downer this post is, maybe the next one will be more uplifting!

Christmas is almost here

sassychic1 — Fri, 23 Dec 2011 23:56:08 +0000

the presents are bought, the groceries are bought, the house is…well presentable, good thing its just family! lol! I am looking forward to spending time with my kids and folks this weekend, just some down time, playing games, eating, laughing, watching movies whatever we feel like doing! It will be fun! I am off work for a week now, that is fun! I am looking forward to getting some things done next week. Kelly and Holly are going to Omaha NB for a Faithwalkers conference. That will be really good for them, relationship building time! So for now I am going to go get supper started Have a Merry Christmas to all 3 of my readers! I will post pics for you later on!

Sometimes I just get tired of being

sassychic1 — Fri, 02 Dec 2011 22:23:24 +0000

a mom to a special needs son. You know I do everything for him, I bathe him, dress him, feed him, tuck him in bed, clean his room, wipe his butt…and on and on it goes. This guy absolutely loves his momma, and his momma absolutely loves him! But, lets face it, most moms are done with this extent of care after a few years, but I have had David for 26 years now. Yesterday he and I had a confrontation, he wouldn’t put his socks on, he wanted me to put his socks on for him! I refused to put his socks on and was pretty upset with him for throwing the fit he did! Then I feel bad because I got so mad at him. I stay even keeled with him most the time, but there are times that I just don’t handle things very well and yesterday was one of those days. David really hates it when I am upset with him, but not enough to do what I say when he dosn’t want to do whatever it is I told him to do.
And then there is the joy of being the mom of a teenage daughter! I can do nothing right and nothing is ever enough. I went to pick her up from school today and she was annoyed with me because I didn’t drop what I was doing immediately when she called and go get her. No, I took the time to finish typing a sentence, put my sons coat on him and get out the door, but hey I should have just walked out the door without taking care of anything, because the princess called! Boy, I guess I am rather fed up with some of the people living in my house right now!
And then there is my daughters boyfriend who said he would come with her to Thanksgiving, and then backed out at the last minute! Sooooo because of that I only got to have her for a couple of hours on Thanksgiving day instead of the whole day because she went to his families for the remainder of their Thanksgiving break. They are supposed to be here for Christmas, but when I spoke with her today she said that now he is talking about Christmas time with his family. She was wanting to know our plans so they could plan when they would be with us and when they will be with his family. I don’t know what to think, as his family was supposed to be going to Texas for Christmas but now those plans have apparently changed. I think that I need to start resigning myself to only getting my daughter for a few hours on Christmas too. I don’t want to alienate this young man who may become my son-in-law, but don’t you think he possibly should make some effort to be on my good side as well…tired of doing all the giving and him all the taking. He has lost a lot of the ground that he had won with me, I don’t trust him to do what he says he will do, and I am not so sure that he is going to be a good husband for my daughter. Being a man of your word and doing what you say you will do even when it is inconvenient or undesirable shows character, but the oposite shows you to be selfish and untrustworthy. I know a lot of women who are married to men of this caliber. They are very unhappy in their marriages. I truly hate to see my daughter walk into that life, but it is her life. I will be here for her no matter what happens. And there is the off chance that I am totally reading this young man all wrong…if that is the case I will be very grateful!
We all want the best for our children and it is so hard when we see them making choices that will come back to torment them in later years.

Thanksgiving Day

sassychic1 — Fri, 25 Nov 2011 03:19:49 +0000

We had a great day today with family. I had all my children home, as well as my brother and his family and my mom and dad. We also had a special guest with us, Kevin’s girlfriend April. We had a relaxing day, with lots of laughing and catching up. I was able to get pictures of all the grandkids, I don’t know that getting all the kids together is going to continue to be feasable as they are all growing up and moving on so quickly. But they are a great looking group.

We had a big meal and great fellowship all the way around. I am enjoying some quiet time now as they have all gone home or shopping. I am not fond of shopping or crowds so I am NOT going out in the madness of Black Friday! I am sure that I am missing many great and wonderful deals but I absolutely hate to be in crowds of people pushing and shoving and being rude, selfish and a whole list of other adejectives…but Kevin, Michael and April are not bothered by the behavior and have ventured out into the madness of Black Friday. Stephanie has gone back to Nixa to be with Corbins family, Corbin opted not to spend Thanksgiving with us, we were very disappointed that he didn’t come. Holly has gone home to KC as she has to work tomorrow. Kelly, Charlie and I are watching the Phantom of the Opera in HD, and David is in bed. My folks and Scotts family have all gone back to Branson. All in all it has been a good day.

Things are moving along so quickly

sassychic1 — Sun, 30 Oct 2011 03:19:44 +0000

how is that time just fly’s by without stopping? I cannot get a grip on how much time has passed and how much has been going on. We live in such an exciting time and scary time all at once! There is such a lot going on in our country, so much at stake. The presidential election is pivitol to our future, and the sheer amount of gullible people in our country that can and will vote is terrifying! But that isn’t the purpose of this blog so I am going to move on to other topics…

I am so excited about getting to have my family home for Thanksgiving. I miss them all so much! It seems that I get such a small amount of time with them anymore. My kids have all gone their separate ways, even Mike and Kelly who are still living here at home are rarely around. Of course David is always here and always close by, he does love his momma. Scott and Heidi will be here with their family, my mom and dad will be here, and it will be so wonderful to have everyone one under one roof even if it is only for a short time. Our family has grown to such a size that it is getting harder to have everyone together. Gettng the schedules to match up is anything but easy now.

Things at work got pretty heated this last Friday, sounds like it was a good day for me to be home sick! But issues were addressed and hopefully things will be better now that expectations are set and bounderies have been placed. We have to work as a team if it is going to work!

We are gearing up for Christmas programs. We start practice for The Gospel According to Scrooge this next week, and Charlie is getting the music together for our church program. It will be a very busy tme for the next couple of months, oh who am I kidding? It is always a busy time around here!

People really annoy me,

sassychic1 — Sat, 15 Oct 2011 01:27:37 +0000

We had Senior night at the high school tonight. When I went in I let them know that I was only there for the the senior night thing and that I was leaving as soon as it was over. I didn’t have to pay to get in. Not so for my husband who was running late and had to stop at the gate to pay to get in. He missed the procession altogether, and then we turned around and left immediately afterwords. It truly is who you talk to, if you go to the gate where Janet is working you will have to pay to get in even if you are not going to stay for the game. I don’t go to the gate she is at ever, but Charlie was in a hurry to get to the field and she was at the closest gate, not that it made any difference. He takes a good attitude about it and says its okay he just made a donation to the sports program. I think it is just a hard nosed woman. I truly have some issues with this woman. I really need to deal with them. They go back many many years, and just because I am not alone in these issues, but do in fact share them with many others in our small town, does not make it okay for me to carry this bitterness toward her. It really isn’t about the $3 charged to walk our daughter across the track for Senior night, it is just one more item in the long list of other offenses over the last 20 years that we have lived here. I wish I could be more like Charlie in that he can still smile and be nice to people who are annoying.
And now my son is wanting, close to demanding that I get him an Iphone with a data plan and he wants me to pay for it all. After all he only makes minimum wage and I should understand…blah blah blah, when will he learn that the more you pressure me the harder I dig my heels in? When will he learn that trying to guilt me into something won’t work, but will actually backfire. I.am.tired.of.dealing.with.everyones.wants.demands.needs. whatever they are. Can you tell that I am kinda cranky? Can you tell that I have had a long day and am tired of people altogether? My house is a mess, my laundry piled to the ceiling, and I am sitting here on my computer complaining. Baaahhh