bad day at work

You know how it is when you feel like nothing you do is right? Everything that goes wrong is blamed on you? There isn’t anywhere to hide and no safe place? Well it wasn’t quite as bad as that, but it came close. I think I was blamed for just about everything today! I didn’t even have a chance to defend myself and then when I did what I was asked to do “so that the problem would go away” it made things much worse. I am the only one up front who knows what is going on. I am the only one who knows how the schedule is supposed to be, how the Drs have told us they want things done up front, yet I am the one with the least amount of say. I feel totally out of control and completely undermined most of the time. All this and I still really enjoy the job I have, but right now I really don’t want to be there. My character is being shaped through this but all I want to say is awwww shut up! I think the office manager realized she pushed me to far today. She did apologize, so that is good. Very few people have been able to get to me enough that they made me cry. She made me cry today, out of sheer frustration of not being able to do everything and make everyone happy, for taking the blame for things that were out of my control and not done by me. It is one thing to take the blame for things that you have actually messed up on but when it is things that you didn’t do or have anything to do with well that is a different story altogether. I know the tension level is high for everyone and will be until we get adequately staffed, but today was definately a breaking point for me. Hopefully tomorrow will be better, or at least I will be able to handle it better.

Six Flags and 104 degrees of sunshine

We  had a great time in St. Louis with everyone! The time spent with family is not common anymore with everyone scattered here and there! We went to six flags on a day that was hotter than H E double hockey sticks! It was miserable after lunch for me. They closed huricane harbor right after we got there! We didn’t even get to get in the water! I don’t know what the problem was though. I ended up going and sitting in the shade for a couple hours while the rest of the family went on more rides. Holly stayed with me though, she was tired as well. I hate being sick and feeling like I am going to heave and there isn’t any way to get out of the heat! However this only lasted for a couple of hours and then the the sun started going down and it began to cool to a more comfortable 90!!! Everyone had a really good time together and it was worth even the nausea!

 

 

We also attempted to go to the Arch on Friday but we didn’t get there in time and if we went up in the Arch we would have been really late getting to Uncle Darold and Aunt Shirley’s house. We decided just to look around the museum and then go ahead and leave for the house. Maybe next trip we can go up in the Arch.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

We also stayed and went to church with them on Sunday. They go to a Christian church there in St. Louis. We really enjoyed the service. The Worship was VERY good and the teaching was relevant to our lives now. They have a very good church with sound teaching. We knew that though by their fruit!  All in all the weekend was wonderful.

Heading out to St Louis

We are going to St. Louis for the weekend to see Charlies aunt and uncle.  The whole family is going…all 8 of us! We are going to the Arch Friday night and then off to Six Flags for the day on Saturday, nothing like sweltering heat and high prices to bring a family together right? We have Michael home for another 3 days, and we planned this trip around him being able to be with us.

Last weekend I had a family reunion of sorts. My cousin Ricky, or Richard as he is called by those who know him now! He will always be Ricky to the family though. Anyway he was home last weekend to visit and we all met at his sisters house in Pitsburg to catch up with him and with eachother! As usual we had a blast, we do know how to have a good time.  Ricky is heading back to war for six months and then will be home again for a short time before he is shipped out again and then he will be home for 3 years. Military life. It was very good to catch up with everyone.

 The wedding the weekend before was beautiful and Lindsey was gorgeous!!!  This day was a long time coming but it came and it was wonderful!

 

My weekends have been very full for the last few weeks!

 

My weeks have been unbelievably busy and trying to get everything done that needs to be done at work and at home has been quite a challenge! I am working at not getting overwelmed and just getting done what I can and accepting what I can’t, for those of you who know me , well you know this is not easy for me! I have not been able to blog, read email, check facebook, do laundry, fix meals, or even pee for that matter! Things have got to slow down and they have got to slow down soon!

Do you love your job?

I love my job! I enjoy the people, most of the time, I enjoy the work and the challenges, I even get a kick out of some of our very eccentric patients! We have a good time. Now not all the work is fun, and not all the people are amusing, I have had my share of but chewing! But how you respond to it can make all the difference in the world! Humor has kept my rear out of some touchy situations! It has also saved me from being shoved in a room with the Dr. to help with an exam, now think about this, I work in a GYN office! Do you want to be in a room for someones exam? NO, me either!!! So I will do what I have to do to keep the nurses happy, they threaten me with all kinds of things, but this one in particular has really worked to their advantage! They will pay, however I am working on my revenge!

We have Michael for the whole weekend!

We are going to see that new movie out called “UP” tonight. The movie looks like it will be funny and it is rated G so we should be safe there! We don’t really have any other plans this weekend, other than the usual mowing the lawn,

 hopefully finishing the roof,

 

 

 

Cleaning house,

doing laundry,

 

you know all the fun stuff! Wouldn’t want Michael to think anything has changed around here!

 

 

I am also planning to make a trip over to one of my dear friends house to see the new baby that they just brought home! Of course you are probably thinking that they brought this precious bundle home from the hospital, but this is not the case! They are just home from the Marshal Islands where they have adopted their little son, Sam! He is soooooo cute! If you want to see him just click on the link to Chelle’s blog called “and sam makes seven”  you will see how beautiful he is and how very blessed they are to have him!!!   The link is there to the right, at the very top of the list!

My job is going well and I am looking forward to what the Lord has in store for me…waiting seems to be what the Lord is wanting to teach me right now, and so I am content to “wait on Him” and enjoy the ride!

 

Graduation 4 down 2 to go…

Kevin graduated this last weekend! Yea, he made it!!! We are so proud of him and all that he accomplished. Dosn’t he look handsome in his cap and gown? He is planning to go into the Marines this fall, but for now he is working for Crossland Heavy before he leaves out for boot camp. 

 

 

On the same day David had his 23rd birthday! He had a veggie tale cake…

 Stephanie and Kevin’s idea and what a great one it was! He loved it!!

 

 He, as always was very excited about everything he got for his birthday!

 

 

 

Heres a pic of his enthusiasm!! 

Christmas and birthdays are such a hoot with David! We had a great day with family and friends! We were missing Michael and that was sad but the rest of the day was just GREAT!

Am I getting the job? hmmmmmm

Well I have now had my interview…so what is the decision? I don’t know yet! There was a more qualified applicant that was interviewed and she looks to be a good fit for our office, so where does that leave me you ask? That leaves me in a place of great favor, as the doctors are discussing “creating” a new position for me. They have been very pleased with my work and God has been faithful to me in every way. So now I wait for the verdict and hopefully I will be offered my new position soon.  I am expected to learn EVERY aspect of running the practice, so that whenever someone is gone I can step in and do the job on the non-clinical side.  This suits me very well. Isn’t it cool how God places us in the place that we fit the best when we allow Him to make the decisions? So I still don’t know “anything”, yet I know enough.  I am looking forward to the job, whatever the title is….

VICTORY IN

2009

Michael was found and he is safe….

I know that it was quite a scare for me that my son went missing, but he is safe and sound. He had an issue with a staff member at TC and needed some space, so he took a walk…a very long walk! He had no intentions of running away, that is a plus.  Sometimes things get out of hand before you know it and then you have a problem. I don’t know all the details but I think that is what happened here. We don’t know what the outcome of this is going to be, but we are trusting God with this as well! Who better to leave it with?

opinions…everybody has one or more as the case may be!

As people we all have our opinions about just about everything! So what happens when people we care about have a different opinion then ours about some very important issues?  Do we just walk away and say you think what you think and I will think what I think? Does that solve anything? What are the motives behind the opinions? What is truly at the heart of the issue? Do we ever really find out before we make a judgement call?  I know that I have been guilty of this more often than not…have you? 

We have a situation like this right now. We  know that the reason for the youth trip to Florida is so that the precious people, who love my son, can be there to support him in his great achievement of making it to Nationals (see previous post)! We are very proud of this and want to do everything we can to support him. But we do question going into a financial bind in order to do this. Our youth pastors are wonderful and are doing a fabulous job with our youth. They desire to be at Nationals to support Kevin. They want the whole youth group to be able to go. That is the sweetest thing, but is it the best?  The difference of opinion isn’t that they shouldn’t “support” Kevin, they should, but does it have to be a youth event that only a couple of the youth will get to participate in?  Charlie and I both have no problem with them going , just don’t call it a youth function when, in all likelyhood, only a couple of youth will get to go, (not even Kelly, his sister, is going to be able to go…)

Charlie has already got everything set up for him and Kevin to go, the flight, hotel, registration are all taken care of now.  (So much for our tax refund…)  They are looking forward to not only the competition but also the father/son time they get to spend together for the week.  Kevin graduates this year from high school and has started the process to join the Marines (sigh, eyes to heaven, begging God for his protection).  The time they will have there is precious.

For the record Charlie and I  don’t want to cause division and truth be known we would rather that this had never even come up…but it has. I am totally in agreement with Charlie on this. This has caused us to reflect on some things, reevaluating and praying. The seasons of our life seem to be going by so quickly, sometimes we come full circle, no most times we come full circle. Time to face some things that we left undone, I think.

Waiting is hard to do!

I am still in limbo about the new position. It has been a week and a half and still nothing…my superviser went on a cruise and was gone last week and this week it seems that feet are being drug!!! I have come to the place that I am okay with however it comes out, if I get the position that is great if I don’t that is fine with me as well. I just want to get this decided so I can move on. Know what I mean?

On another note, my dear friend, Chelle, is in the Marshal Islands picking up her precious adopted baby boy! I am sooo excited to be able to see and hold this long awaited Blessing!!! Welcome, Sam we are thrilled to have you!!!! Love you Chelle, can’t wait to see you when you get back!!!